October is here....

Unbelievable that it is already October. Seems like I only manage to post once a month!

In any event, fall in NC isn't very fall-like yet. Back home I'm sure there are many dew covered crisp mornings and the leaves are beginning to change. Down here, we still have 80 degree days and not much leaf change at all, if any. But we do have cooler evenings and its really beautiful when its a sunshine day since its not as humid as the summer was.

My boss at Rita's is 99% sure he will close for the winter around November 15. I figured we'd stay open year round, sigh. So I've begun the impossible task of job hunting in this area. There just aren't enough openings for the amount of people here, and the openings that are here require unrealistic amounts of experience for someone like my age. Especially since I went to college instead. I figured a Communication degree is much more appealing than 5 years secretary experience. But apparently not!

Up home, the stall building is already moving along very quickly for Fanny. I never imagined bringing her home would be a result of the barn crumbling before our very eyes. I always figured we'd bring her home so I could put a new show horse at the barn, or she'd come home to my own house and barn. It kills me to see and hear what is happening at a place that was such an escape from the every-day bull crap for the last 15 years of my life. But my girl is old now, she will be 28 next year. She needs someone to give an extra moment to look in on and make sure everything is ok. She needs to come in when its too hot or cold and can't stand in the rain. And lets be honest, she isn't getting what she needs. Especially since one of the people who looked after her most couldn't take the horrible treatment she was getting from her own family and close friends. I don't blame her one bit.

I find it amazing that it hasn't even been three years since my trainer passed and everyone has seemed to forget what we all were trying to do. We had meetings, we came together and agreed to keep the barn going for his memory. How quickly this agreement has been forgoten by the people I least expected it to happen with. Maybe its for the best that I am 500 miles away. I am disgusted by what I see from this far, I can only imagine how I would feel if I was back home seeing it. The barn was my favorite place in the world and it breaks my heart to see what has happened internally.

I know Fanny will be in much better care at home with my family. And I will be home for good in a few more months. It will be so nice to just walk outside to see my two equine buddies!