The big day is about four days away. I can't believe how fast these last few months have gone. Everyone keeps asking if I am nervous or excited. I am a bit of both but it doesn't feel like anything too overwhelming - its a positive feeling.
Tony came home Sunday morning on a one way flight. It was so nice to pick him up and realize there will be no more of this 'visiting for a weekend and leaving two days later driving 10 hours alone up and down the eastern part of the country' anymore. We came home and relaxed a bit then went furniture shopping - we needed a couch and a mattress. Things went a bit haywire with that. My parents came with us because they wanted to get our mattress as a wedding gift. The mattress they bought for themselves just 6 weeks prior was bumped up nearly 200 dollars what they paid. Needless to say, they were a bit angry. I understand that because thats a lot of money to go up in such a short time. They were trying to get the sales people to give a little. This is where I have no idea what happened. I was just sitting on another bed up the room a bit. My parents said they were leaving and for us to get our couch. I didn't want to hang around and get a couch there because the sales people were staring like vultures about to rip us apart so I left as well. I was angry and frustrated outside the store because we only have a short amount of time to get all this stuff figured out, get married, go on our honeymoon, then move to North Carolina a few short days later. So I'm a bit stressed about getting everything done and figured out. I said a really stupid comment to my dad and he told my mom about it. I said it out of anger - something I do often and really need to learn to control. It led to a huge argument and my mom and I haven't really spoken since Sunday. It upsets me so much. This is my last week here. I get married in four days and one of the most important people in my life isn't talking to me.
Today is my last day at my store up here in PA. I'm sad to leave my friends, even though its only for a year. I just don't know if I'd have a spot waiting when I come home. Just have to wait and see.
So here we are, so close to the big day I've been planning for months. I'm so excited for it. I'm excited to see everyone all dressed up and I think the weather is supposed to be nice. I'm excited for the reception and celebration and to see family and friends at a happy occasion. I'm just so upset about the fight my mom and I had....she was such a huge person in helping me with silly details, not to mention the fact that they have paid for it all. So I guess I just have to wait it out and see how it all goes.
